Living Miserably Without Euu

Happy Birthday Singapore...~!

2005-08-09T16:25:00.000+08:00

it's been almost a week since i last updated...time flies real fast, it's Singapore's fortyth Birthday... yeah~ she's old already but still working great.hehes.

despite being a public holiday, some of us from Orchestra had to wake up even before dawn.i wonder what is so good about watching people perform early in the morning.hmms.well, we were invited to perform in Bedok Reservior ROAD.we were cheated...hahas.miss ong told us it was Bedok Reservior, i guess she missed the word "Road".anyway, it was a average perfomance.quite messy but not lousy.some of our tempo was so OUT.tsk-tsk-tsk.have to put in more effort.it was quite a cooling day, we wore the same costume as the time we performed in SYF.talking about costume.i'm so regreting with my damn idea.i forgot to wear my stocking.my high-heels gave a whole lot of trouble.walking from the 62 bus-stop to the 147 bus-stop gave my left leg a blister and i had to walk like a handicape.it was such a disasterous thing.

hmms.let's talk about other things.six days, so many god damn thing has happened.i found out some truth and people confessed.saD.sometimes i ask myself why is it that i'm so undecisive.i can't make up my mind.i even choose to deceive myself about things that are obvious to me.hais.but, i guess i'm no longer lonely.can say that i'm attached but i guess it's not the right feeling.hais.i don't know how to put it.

it's late, well for me though.neeed to get ready before watching the National Day Parade.
hehes.

-1636.august nine.2005

woah.~ so long le...

2005-08-03T16:53:00.000+08:00

hais. what a saD and tiring day. i don't know why i feel saD but i'm very sure that i'm very very very tired. didn't had much sleep last night. slept at twelve plus doing the dumb homeworks. saD.

next week, we will be having our common test le. so fast, secondary two life is gonna end. i'm gonna miss my classmates. saD. hais. don't feel like talking le. buais.

camp. hahas.

2005-07-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

woah.~ hahas. three days in camp miss me mahs. hahas. i hate to admitt but the camp is okay larh. hahas. frankly speaking, i have learn alot from this adventure camp and have met many new friends. hehes.

the first day of camp was boring. first we had to report to school at the normal time then we were led to the hall for grouping. saD. don't have good friends in my group. but i think it is good to group as that way lorh. hahas. better, then we can meet more people from the same school. kekex. anyway, after the grouping, the facilitators from the Whiz Adventure came then we played some ice-breaking games. those were lame. nothing fun at all. hais.

but i have to admitt that their cheers and claps and so on are very cute and interesting. hahas. miss those three days. after having the ice-breakers, we went to have our early lunch. the food was okay. at least better than the food we had in Primary Five camp. come to think of it, yucks. eee...

after having our lunch, we proceed to the hall again and had some breifing then headed to the front of the school to take the bus to the campsite. wow.~ first time being in a campsite far from school and home. the hut were cool man but a bit scary. hahas. ohh yeah. my instructor was Larry. a very pleasant instructor.

we went in to our respective huts and put our bags down. we had to assemble at this MPH = multi purpose hall. then we were seperated to the different destinations. first for my group, group ten, was this so called "General Elements". our first task was the nitro thingy. forgot le.
the task was like... erms. you have to swing cross a so called river with this rope that will be in between the "sinking island" and a "new island" and the most challenging thing is that, the rope is not near us. as we were like so unfamiliar with each other, we just kept quiet. only some girls contribute ideas and i wasn't involve. i once thought the games we lame. then they came up with an idea of tying shoes together and throwing at the rope and make it swing. then the fun part is when we all swing there. hahas. so fun.

then the next task was to climb this wall. this high wall (at least taller than me) then we had to come with a solution to climb over it. then the guys decided to carry everyone of us up using their hands. so we all completed this task. it wasn't a 100% success for me because i was afraid. hehes. then we had to overcome our fear to do that. last task for "General Elements" was to move the 22 of us on to a medium size thingy. we were unsuccessful saD.

Then after "General Elements", we had outdoor cooking. first, was what i had done in Primary Five camp the jungle doughnut. then we were given a potato, a onion and an egg. we were suppose to think of three dishes. we made onion omelete and fried potato. i cut the onion and potato. hehe. i sliced them i meant. then we went to do abseiling. it was so god damn fun but slow. we had to wait very long just for last than one-minute of fun. hais. i was fast when i went down. hahas. okay that's all for the first day. hehes.

at night when we were having dinner, we were noisy so we all had to raise up our hands. it was so tiring. sobs sobs. then we did this blindman thingy. it was so boring but scary. we didn't know where were we at least i didn't cheated. hahas. i used to. anyway, the first night i slept a bit. vani kept waking me up then we woke Jannah at twelve am to wish her birthday. hahas. lame right. hahas.

next morning, a girl woke us up at five plus. sian. we had to meet at 6.50am but she woke us so god damn early. never mind about that. then we went to wash up and assemble outside the canteen in the carpark. before meeting, i met edmond and dickson.L. we had a small chat then we proceed to the carpark. we had to do morning PT. morning exercise that is. it was so tough. we had to repeat again and again because we either didn't do it properly, as a group or we were too soft. saD.then we were again seperated into our respective destination.

my group was the zip line or the so called flying fox. saD. i didn't manage to do it. we waited for a very long time but didn't do it. saD. because of time constrain.saD. then we proceed to do rock wall. that is rock climbing. that one also saD. i didn't do because not enough time. saD. but felt a bit glaD because i hate this activity. I don't know why but i don't like. After this was CRC -> the Challenge that is. saD. it rained half way of the briefing from the instructor. hmms. but after the rain i manage to do one *obsticle* that is to walk on a woobly wooden plank. a thin wooden plank i should say. saD. it was okay but my hand hurted. i was too nervous at first that i grabbed the ladder too hard. hehes. then we did one LeaderShip Activity. we had to do the trust fall. but i escaped. i was too determined in not doing it. hahas. then we prepared our cheer. hehes. last for the whole camp, was kayaking.hehes. that was the second best part of the whole camp. first time sia. not bad for me. hehes. then people from group ten and nine ran back to their huts and took their things to change.

wooo~~~ eC people wore their class t-shirt. frankly speaking, i was very touched to see most of our classmates wearing our calss t-shirt. hehes. then it was our camp fire.

camp fire was the best sia. hahas. dickson.L was so high so siao. hahs. we had to take turns to go up to the middle and do our cheer. our class was so united almost the whole class gathered one side of the hall (we had to have our campfire in the MPH because i rained) then we chatted together and dance together and sang some songs together. one of the instructor walked passed us and asked us why we were all in black and gathered there we answered him and requested to have the whole secondary twos to sing a birthday song to Jannah. hahas. then the instructor agreed. hehes. then after all the groups had completed their cheers, everyone present sang birthday song to Jannah. hahas. after that, we had disco dance. woo.~ hehes. fun sia. we dance and dance just as if we were in PUB like that. hahs. Dickson Lee was the most craziest one there. he sang and dance as if that was no bodies business. hahas. fun fun. hehes.

then we had our supper. i was having a big headache back then. saD. because Edmond screamed right into my ear and my ear drums hurted badly. hehes. couldn't really stand properly. received too many informations.hehes. then i slept without bathing. hahs.

the last day of the also quite fun. hahas. tired le larh. saD. yesterday after i reach home, i bathed then sleep. hahas. okay larh i got to go le buaiz..

-left at 6.35p.m... hehes

hate you arse-hole

2005-07-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i really hate people around me. saD. i'm so confused now. i feel like changing my blog. do you think i should.? hmms. -bleahZ-

youth day. hahax.

2005-07-01T17:18:00.000+08:00

my school's teacher rocks sia. today is youth day and i have to admit that i really had a great time in school. although we still had to study, the concert planned by the teachers were just wonderful.
today is the first morning run we have this semester. it is nothing special but, we had a new system. as the home room system had started, students don't own any class. in the morning, i went to school as per normal. well, the unlucky part today is that i saw shawn. as in my primary school friend. i think i just ignored him at that time. anyway, back to the morning. i didn't know whether i have duties after having different things happening at the same time. i reached school at about 06.40+++ then met KimPei and ChaiHuat. we accompanied chaihuat to the reflectory because he wanted to buy drinks. then we check out the prefectorial notice board. mine was damn outdated. no new annoucement. the last announcement was stil there and it was like four months ago.
enough of that. then, i went up to the second floor where my form teacher's class is located. it was locked. my teacher didn't open the door until like about 7.00+++. i was a bit pissed because she was the one who didn't open the door earlier and expect her students to change within a minute. that was a bit ridiculous. but, i have no rights to humilate her. anyway, before being able to be in class, i was mocked. well, mocked about the same thing. i'm short. i don't see the problem with me being short. well, my classmates just wanted to have fun. but i'm starting to get sick of it.
after school, we had our lunch and went to the library and watched a movie "Rain Man" i can't remember the characters but i know Tom Crusie was one of the actors. it was organised by the English department in my school. it is not a boring movie because you get to laugh about some silly scences. but, i learn a new thing. i learn about autism. they are people who has metal problems but are not really classified under retard or crazy. autism are people who has certain talents. like that they are good in maths and has very very good memories. wooh. why am i talking about what i have learned.? anyway, after the movie, i went home straight. i didn't want to hang out for a reason or another. but i don't know why. just felt really tired. and one things, i really starting to hate Benjamin. he sucks sia.~ at least Johnathan didn't let him step over him today. hahax.
tata. a bit tired le. -bleahZ-

today c.o so fun.

2005-06-30T19:13:00.000+08:00

y0y0.today c.o so fun sia. hahax. Today Lixin join c.o don't whether she is serious de or just fooling around. just hope that she is in for real now though. heeheex. saD lehx. i haven't complete my English holiday homework that is suppose to be handed up tomorrow. -sighZ- later really have to get on with it and i think i have to burn the mid-night oil le. hahax. I pity daniel sia. "bai ka" hahax. who ask him so blur one cut nail also can cut until don't know what. hahax.

saD larh. tomorrow don't know do what lorh. Don't know whether have to do duty anot. the Prefectorial board is so dis-organise. but i have to admit that i have been slacking too. but, i find it more and more boring. i hope that we prefects have more things to do. saD. okay larh. tired le. after practise, left shoulder very *sour* hahax. no larh. my left shoulder is aching. =pPp

bleahZ. go le. hehex.

school open le.

2005-06-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

hahax. heeheex. -bleahZ- school reopen le. hahax. so fun. our school start the homeroom system le. so fun. i think it is really a good idea that actually gives our brain some break while learning. i have to admit that lessons are much interesting these days. hahax. now everyday will have energy for lesson but will only last for the first period. hahax.
first day of school and i'm arranged to sit with LiJian during Miss Suhana's class. siian. but i think it is better than sitting with Mole-ly, our class Lau GangYi the chatter box. he can talk to everyone in the class sia. -sighZ- saD. today, i was arranged to sit with that nuisance. i think i would prefer sitting with Lijian although he is a bit irritating at times. hahax. Then during History lesson, i'm arranged to sit with Leonard. a bit unlucky but at least better than sitting with GangYi. hehex.
today very very tiring. last night didn't catch much sleep then today do so many chores. hahax. sweep the whole music studio. tired. eh. really tired le larhs. go watch my charm le.

yoyo.

2005-06-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

hehex. nine days never blog liao nehx. haha. i'm now chatting with Haniza. she called me. hahaz. saD arhx. one more day then school's gonna start. saD sia. June holiday seems short to me this year. but, many things have happened and i'm glad that i have at least a week to really relax. Yesterday was the last day of our DAY camp.~

The first day was quite boring, the ice-breaking games were a bit dead. the secondary ones were so stiff and anti-social. anyway, the worse part was that, i wasn't feeling as good as normal. i felt heat early in the morning sia~ then start having headache. saD right. hahax. although morning was boring, the afternoon was so-so larh. start practising lorh. then, that is only when we (the seniors) realise that they (our juniors) were not taught the basics. the teacher is okay but he likes to go solo and will often neglect his students. saD. then we had no choice but to teach them from head to toe. My junior's attitudes are okay. Zhallyka is the most diligent one while the other two were okay~ Suying is okay but she is not honest about herself. for example when she don't understand what we are talking, she won't ask. she has a bit attitude. i can't take her sometimes. then lastly, huishan. she is a very fast learner. she get what we say and catch up real fast. but, she gives in too easily. a bit of pain she feels and rest is on the way. heard from Kim Pei and YanLing that she takes break for a bit of pain she feels. i don't know how is she going to perform the six or more long songs on the performance day. have to use the index finger the most lorh. so saD.

then the second day of camp was a bit more alive. hahax. the games and attitude are more lively. first, was the project meeting then it was Amazing Race. I'm so glad that i'm in-charge of one station and that saved me from playing. hahax. i modified my station and made the challengers to use their mouth and bite the rubber bands up from a pile of flour. hahax. then is was combine practise. hahax. the first three songs were so simple. hahax. so fun sia. but because of the sec ones. we had to go slow. saD. hahax. can't wait for the concert to come. wooo~~ heeheex.

last day, that is yesterday, i had the most fun.~! hahax. the game we had yesterday was so tiring lorh. had to run and chase after people. saD right. run until i leg pain sia. pain until today also haven't recover. -sighZ- hahax. then it was YiJia and Gary's birthday. hahax. they were sabotaged yesterday. so cute. but i think it would be Gary's most unforgetable tiring funny but embarassing birthday. hahax. the morning and afternoon was fun but tiring. the practises were good and smooth too. hahax. then evening was a bit tensing. i had to rush home early but teacher was not done with her briefing. then after that got scolded by mother. I was so late that the whole family had to wait for me and we couldn't dine out. i was so god damn guilty. saD. then after that, i went out with Jie Jie Yani to but dinner. wasn't in the mood to talk lorh. i wasn't saD that my hp was confiscated or that i can't go out with my friends but because i was so guilty that i didn't wana talk. i controlled my tears. until i reach the bath room it was so difficult. when i went to the bath room, i didn't really burst into tears, i just cried a little. then i went out had my dinner and more lectures. at about nine plus, i went in to my parents' room then i apologised to my dad. that was when more tears flow down my cheeks. after all those apologising, the phone rang and it was mine. my hp was confiscated (because bill exceed. $57.50) so i decided to divert all my calls to my house. then Leonard was on the line. he wasn't informed about my mood at that point of time then he said: "just now i forgot that i call you, i asked your sister whether dicky was at home" i just smiled. then i sniffed a little. when he heard me, he asked me whether i was crying. i kept quiet for a moment then i said no but couldn't control myself then i really burst into tears. he comforted me and i'm glad that i had a friend like him. that was my night.
okay~ hahax. this morning was disasterous. i told leonard last night not to ask xingjie to come to my house in the morning but i think he just ignored me. i was sleeping when my mother came in and told me to wake up. few minutes later, i sat up then before i knew it, my mother opened the door and say: "dou nai here liao" then i saw xingjie looking into my room. i was so not awake but i'm a bit pissed. then i went down my bed, had a bit chat with xingjie and went to wash up. that was my morning today then afternoon i just sat around and watch the televsion. i just packed my table and is happy with that achievement. hahax.

i have been typing for about half an hour, and i'm starting to feel the pain from my fingers and arm. due to yesterday practise too. my hands and legs are aching. hmmx. i really got to go. buh bye. kekex. -bleahZ-

16:28 to 17:06
-jasmin`

mmm... so long never blog le...

2005-06-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

hehex. so long never blog le. miss me nort.? heeheex. sell meat. -bhb- haha. anyway, this June holiday is a bit short for me. haha. last time i think June holiday too bored and long le... now i think it is interesting and FUN but short. hahax. one more week. just one more week and we are back to the same old routine. saD lehx. need to study again.

Actually, i think this June holiday the only thing that is wasted is the precious time spent in Miss Chua file checking. think about it. i think it is ridiculours(whatever...i forgot how to spell). the first two weeks, we were called back to school to finish our filing that was suppose to be done even before the holidays. never mind about that. who cares. -sighZ- one more week leh. i should be specific. i have only left with ermx. 6 days of real rest. next week, we will start having c.o DAY CAMP.! can you even believe it.! DAY camp lehx. miss mr. lim sia.~ last year overnight de more fun lorh. worse still. i can't stay for BBQ on the last day of camp.! It's my dad's birthday and the whole family have to go out for a good good dinner. not really disappointing though. -sighZ- ohh yea. talking about c.o.~ I have been promoted.Promoted to plucking de leader. well, most sec. 2s have been promoted. my batch. haha. Peggy is one of the person--in-charge of Publication, YuFang is 'liuqin' group leader, FengNi is overall incharge or Logistic, HuiYi overall incharge of Wood Wind section, YanLing iishh the 'zhong ruan' leader, KimPei is quater head master, Chai Huat is the cello/bass the leader... still got more larh. but can't remember le. Kellyn is our chair man this year. Finally a female for a change. Most of the time, you will see man being the head/president/chairman of something. got woman larh. but seldom de lorh. -agree??- hmmx.

enough of that. they are so school affair. this June got holiday assignments again. saD. have to waste time on them. hahax. really the very irritating. hehex.

But to be frank, i think i had fun this June. have been visiting Compass library for at least once a week. With the haniza of course. she is a real book worm. one book within few days can finish le. hahax. i don't know can anot. never try before. but i haven't really found a book that is as interesting as "BET ME" by Jennifer Crusie. if i not wrong. hahax. that book is so god damn good. hahax. but because i borrowed it during school days, i spend one week on it. haha. every night one hour on it. hmmx. heehee.

anyway, this June holiday i really had fun larh. miss xiaoxuan though. never see her for weeks! saD. haha. anyway. i got to go le larh. write so long de le.

tell me what to do

2005-06-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

-sighZ- i just teared my lips again... sad... not first time le, but this time, it is worse.. my whole lower lips is so un protected... brings alot of discomfort and pain... i thought i was numb after being hurt but, i guess i'm wrong then... i keep tearing my lips despite feeling pain... i don't know what i am thinking, don't know what the hell am i missing... it is so suffering... i wana let my feelings known but who on earth will even listen to me...

peggy fengni and i are drifting apart... i was the cause... who can cry over spilled milk... i can't save it either... can i..? -sighZ- this june holiday, im so stuck at home... if i didn't went out without calling my mother that night, i won't be grounded, then i could go out more often with them... haiz.. forget it

i have been feeling very low these days... i don't know why... i can't bring myself to smile... not the whole day but most of the time... i don't know what im missing i just feel so down, so blue, so sad, so low... -sighZ- tell me what im thinking of ... anyone anyone will do.. im so messed up... haiz... my piorities are so all around... haiz... hell what am i thinking of...?

sad...`

2005-06-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

haiz... had enough le... no more nagging... no more talks... no more no more... sian

got back my results... heng arhx.. all pass... history 41/80 haha... pass by one mark only sia.. haha... so happiiex.. kisiao.. got to go le.. buaiz..

First outing on June holiday..~

2005-05-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

Yea... I have finally finish my Examinations...~! Haha... Sian.. Now ar home nothing to do... Haiz... Yesterday was a weird day...

The Sec. twos have to stay back after the papers for some briefing and it is like so `sao xing` lorh...~ After last paper should let us off straight de mah.. haiz.. then no choice had to stay back.. The papers yesterday was okay... But, I know I will fail HisTory, D&T and Art... I hate this three subjects and I will never like them... My Art was so god damn plain... -Speechless- Just hope I will pass them.. At least just pass then won't fail badly... The briefing shit sia..~ Tell us to buy a book.. A `mystery` book somemore.. They said the book cost $15.90 in Times then our school will pay half of the price so it's like we still have to pay seven dollars... Haiz... But can see that the book is quite interesting... heex...

After the briefing, I had to stay back for Miss Chua's file checking.. more `sao xing`.. -SighZ- But in the end she say don't need to stay back le.. Troublesome teacher.. June Holiday still need to go back for many other things including for her... Other teachers had already collected their pupils' files but she still haven't start checking... -Speechless-

Enough about school... After all the rubbish, Angele, Yufang and I went out... At first we wanted to look for Peggy, FengNi, Cheri and HuiYi but drop that idea when we reach HeartLand... If I not wrong, they were in BK (Burger King).. We went to eat in KFC.. Lazy to go in details, we saw Vaness then we were wanting to go home, Angele wanted to go to one seniors house to look for Melissa, QuanLin they all.. If not wrong is to watch movie bahx... When we were about to reach the bus stop, YuFang remembered that she had to top-up her card then she went looking for her card... It was like 5 to 10 minutes until she confirm that she had lost her card... We went back to KFC, Popular and all the other shops we had went to... Unfortunately, we really can't find it... But I think the `cleaner` of KFC accidentally threw it away... When I ask her whether she say a card, she went 'Huh..?!?' in a weird and suspicious way... We went to a table and settled down.. She never gave up searching for her card but we went outside the KFC.. When we were like out, YuFang spotted the cleaner... She went to the other side of the KFC and search the dustbin.. This make us suspect even more... We forget about her and went to the Popular.. When we went back to KFC to double check that they really didn't find the card, we walked pass the auntie (the cleaner, i decided to call her this... it is so rude to call some one cleaner)... When one of the person who was working in the counter went to question the auntie, she was gone.. when missing after mopping the floor half way i guess... then later minutes later, the auntie was found.. (-_-)" the person went to ask again and she gave the same answer (as in no)... We gave up searching then went home...

My mother was at home sia... Suay... Then nothing happen le lorh...

Today, I went out with Joyce, FengNi and YanLing... HuiYi was suppose to meet us but she didn't so sad... We went to Heeren... Well, to be specific, we walked there... siian... Then took some neoprints and spotted JinLing, Joanne and Lupita... They wore... Woah~ Miniskirt and nice shirt... first time seeing them outside so a bit exaserating... haha... then we went to Taka... Today so many organisation is giving out free things.. For example, Coca Cola... so fortunate but, I think we look like people who are `kiasu`... I guess it is normal almost everyone present was like us... hmmm. Then we walked back to Plaza Singapura.... Because Joyce had to attend her sister's school's BBQ, no choice have to go home lorh... FengNi alighted at Kovan, she go peggy house.. Peggy couldn't join us because she got flag day... haiz.. sian.. then we accompany Joyce and alighted at SengKang. We watch her leave then we go and take to Hougang again... When we reach hougang, we went to the library... then at about 6.38pm then no one at home... Until now leh.. sian sian...~ Haiz... Lonely, I am so lonely...~ haha... sian...

Now chatting with friend... buaiz... heehee...

Die le larh...~!

2005-05-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Die le larh...~! Today iishx my Science and Design&Technology paper... I think I'm really gonna fail both my History and D&T paper le... Sad... Haiz... Anyway, I really hate this two subjects.. Haiz.. Forget it...~!

Today, after school or should I say exam, me Peggy, FengNi, Hui Yi, Angele and YuFang went out... At first very siian.. Don't know where to go then later we decided to roam around in Hougang Mall... First, we went to have lunch... Ohh yeah, talking about lunch, I owe Yufang Four bucks... Sad arhx... I'm gonna be broke sia... After lunch, we went to the library... Took some books and settled down.. We went to many parts of the library but very extra, block the wasy for people to walk.. hahax... Then don't know for how long, we sat on the chair there lorh.. By then, HuiYi go home le.. SaD... Then when we were so called reading, a man kept sneezing and making funny noises that really distracted us... We kept laughing and sort of immitating him... Haha.. While we were like you know talking, there was this bloody guy in black, he kept staring at use lorh.. Siao de... We were not even laughing about him.. Then when we decided to leave the library, we walk passed him... You should have seen his bloody face man.. Yuckx`...~!

Talking about people staring, I feel very fed up... We went to Cards and Such before going to the library... There was this sales person in PINK...~! Then we just browse around and went out... I was looking at the stand where there were many cute cards.. Very cute.. I was looking at them, touching also larh... But I swear I never even talk it out of the stand... When we were in between the shop and the library, I spotted the woman behind us... She is so god damn idiotic... She was looking at the stand I was browsing at previously then keep looking at us as though we have took one of her things.. I feel so angry.. She gave us that kind of look... So idiotic lorh... I hate this type of people.. Just because we are in school uniform, with big bags, that means we will be stealing.. I can't believe it man..~ This is not the first time le lorh... ~ The other time was when we were at heart land more the `Gift a name`... The shop owner was like almost behind us but abit far.. Then whatever we touch and leave that table", she will start searching, looking at us and counting the goods... Stupid right.. I feel so looked down man... Then we wanted to revenge, of course we didn't steal larh... We just kept going in and out of the shop then we seperate ourself then everyone of use start touching her bloody stuffs.. haha.. Don't know when we really leave she was still counting anot.. We are helping her sia.. To improve her maths.. hahax.. So bad...

Tomorrow iish my Maths Paper 2 and Art... Yeah..~! Last paper siia... hahax.. so happiie and excited...~! hope tomorrow will be raining too... haha.. these two days rain sia... but good larh.. more time to study.. haha.. really hope tomorrow wil rain again.. haha.. Today more free` don't have to study or whatever... Maths can study what nehx... hmm. nothing lorh.. haha.. then art only need to do the stupid prepartory work.. sian... later then doing it.. siian.. haiz haiz..

Okay larh.. I got to go... Now listening to Mr. Lonely.. So sweet... heehee... Should have Miss Lonely one lorh.. only guys will get lonely meh... hmph..~! -bleahZ-

[Miss Lonely -wink] heeheex

Exam week...~!

2005-05-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

Siian..~! This week is my exam week.. Siian sia..~! Need to like keep quiet for erm. two hours...? But at least got break larh...~! Haiz..
Yesterday was our Geography and Literature paper... The Geopgraphy paper is quite easy until like the last section...? The bloody ``Essay`` questions... I hate writing essay unless I got study..~ Well, I didn't study for both subject... At first I wanted to go to school early then can at least read through but guess what...? The bus failed me..~! I reached the bus stop at 0630 then waited for my usual 0640 bus... The bus was puctual but, it was so god damn full that the bus driver had to skip our bus stop.. Then continue wait lorh.. hmmm. then about 0650 another '62' bus arrived.. It was also full... So angry but then i was panicking le.. so no more mood to be angry.. haha. Then after that I took the forth bus... double deck.. haha... Then reach school at about 0714.. sian almost late sia.. Scare then today reach school at 0630.. haha... One punishment is enough... Literature paper was okay okay larh.. I am quite satisfied with my essay answer... Can say is my best man.. heex.
Then today...~? Today we were tested on History and Maths paper 1... Sad thing was, I never study for History... Haiz... Forget about that subject... I hate that sub. anyway... Then Maths worse sia.. I got read through but then got many careless mistake.. First question i think i wrong le lorh.. I got a lot of questions wrong sia... haiz... Sad sad... -sobx- Then I think I today will fail my Maths and History paper...
Tomorrow we will be tested on erm. Science and Design and Technology... Haiz.. Both subject I also don't like...
Haiz... My idiotic sister wana use the computer... Kii siao de.. ask her to wait like will take her life like that... complain to my mother... mad one lorh... siian... Nagg nagg nagg... Everyday play SIMS like wil not siian one.. Sometimes I really hate my that stupid sister lorh... Actually not sometimes larh.. Is Most of the Time.. Just hate her sucking attitude.... Always complain to mother... Don't have backbone... Got legs then don't know how to walk by herself..
But she quarrel with me worse than my mother nagg at me.. My mother won't scold me only ask me to faster then my sister..? she of course don't scold me larh... She will start to argue then I will argue back... Guess who wins in the end..? Me larh... Then she will start crying and so on.. that one, will waste my saliva and time... When she cry she will distract me and make me scold her even more... Eleven le stil like children like that.. haiz... I think I blog until here larh.. siian.. she talking rubbish there liao.. -sister-

Remember to tagg my tagg board after reading hor.. idiot now she chatting one the phone.. shiit her sia..

[miseable mii``]

Sian sia...~

2005-05-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

Wah... Today so sian sia... haha... I cut my wrist... Oopz... Haha... I don't know what happened... Maybe I was pocessed bahx.. haha... I was alone at home today at about one...? to about four plus five bahx...~ then during that few short hours, I was trying to forcus on my bloody work... But there was no motivation... So, I went on to have a chat with my friends... Later, I start thinking about somethings (definitely not about boys) then suddenly felt lonely, sad and miserable... I think is about Friends bahx... Can't remember... Then I took out my blade which was just beside me, the drawer was beside me... Then I took out and cut loh.. I continued doing my work until a while later I felt pain... Then I realise I really cut my hand... Stupid right... Yeah, you can say that again... -BleaHz...-
Today was fine man... A bit boring maybe... I stayed at home the whole day, I planned to study but end up using the computer chatting with friends... I'm always like that de.. can't seem to forcus... No motivation sia... haiz... What can I do...? +=*BleahZ*=+
Tired leh now... But since today I never study, I have planned to study not tomorrow but later at night when everyone is sound asleep... haha...
Today is Vesak day... Actually I had to go to the temple de but because Examinations coming so never go.. My parents allow me to just stay at home to study but actually i was like playing and just hanging around... Sad leh today... YuFang, Peggy and Chai Huat went to Kovan there to study... I wanted to go but since i'm grounded, I have to stick to that bloody rule...

Today at home went through all my contacts in MSN Messenger... Found out that I haven't talk to RuYi for fifty days le... Woah.. That's long man.. Haiz.. I got to go... My mother is nagging me to help her with her bloody phone... oops.. heex... chaoz...~

So miserable~!

2005-05-21T07:47:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Miserable sia... heex... I'm so sad sad... -sob- Friends from other school have finish their last exam papers but I haven't~! Only finish taking English and Chinese~!
Well, good news is that I passed my Chinese...~! Wah...! Yeah~~ heex... But no use... I've got a low grade... 61.2% niia...~ Guess what, among all the girls in my class, I'm the second lowest for Mid-Year... I wonder what will my marks be if the idiot luo han fish ((Chinese Teacher)) have added my other marks (spelling, CA1 et. cera) Surely will pull me down de... Know why...?!? My Chinese spelling like shiit de.. Never study then tyco tyco will pass but few marks de.. heex...
Hmmm. I wonder when can we get our English papers back.. I can't blame the cockroach ((English Teacher)) because she is suffering from joint problems... I truly understand how it feels... But, I hope I pass the paper... It is quite difficult... Worse, I hate some sections... The composition is not up to my normal standard man.. Haiz...
I just found out that I very bad... hmmm. I mentioned my teachers nickys... hahaz.. who cares... sorry arhz teachers... bLeahZ...

Today after school I went out with YuFang, we go Hougang Mall... I wanted to top up my card again.. I went there yesterday with LiXin then today go again... haha... Before topping up my card, we went to eat lunch first... Go KFC eat shrooms meal... Then we went to walk around lorh... Bought a stapler, ruler and black pen.. Must get ready for exam and going back to school during June holidays for English.. Haha... Well, I'm not suppose to post right now.. I'm suppose to do my Chinese project de.. But me lazy siia... hee.. After posting this, I'll liink mee the friends... haha...

I feel so carefree now without having to think about -him-... haha... but I don't know why... As I'm typing these, I'm still thinking and wondering what -he- is doing... ((Sian)) I'm always so ill-fated... Just can't get -him- out of my life... Maybe because... never mind... haha... Siann.. Let's talk about other things...

I wonder whether anyone actually will bother to read my blog... Like I bother to read some of my good friends blog ecspecially FengNi, Haniza, Michelle and Fang mei de... haha... The rest only sometimes when I'm free... I used to keep reading -his- blog de.. But if I not wrong, -he- don't have blog le... sad... cannot know what -he- is thinking le.. haha.. Dots... bLeahZ... Now listening to songs from he CD SUPER... hee... JinHui give de... I feel guilty accepting the disc but.. I don't know why I take also.. Haiz...

Exams coming le.. But guess what?!? I'm not even prepared.. I never study for any subjects yet... I swear I really haven't... I very scared but I don't know why I can't forcus or simply force myself to study leh.. When I see books ecspecially textbooks, I will start to feel sleepy then will headache de... haha... Hmmm. Maybe most teenagers also like that bahx...

Aiyo.. I think I better go Liink my friends first then go and start doing research on my Chinese Project arhx.. Later YanLing start nagging at me again... Sian.. Buaiz... -muaks-

[Carefree miie``!!!]

Class T-Shirt!!!

2005-04-29T12:23:00.000+08:00

Yesh~ Finally the day I have waited... haha... Today, Miie Jannah Hafizah Dickson Chua (Dicky) and last of all, our dearest Chairman Soo Hou went to Novena... Sian arh~ Miss Suhana dua us lorh~ Yesterday say what she will -BRING- us to novena with her bloody car... Well, guess what was My reaction : "She drives?? Woah~" haha... Can't blame me, she doesn't look like one who can drive... oops... I'm so god damn bad... =pPp heeheexXx

We left our school at four plus... I had to do detention!!! ArGgG... Miss Suhana larh... She again... But was my fault too larh... Remember my class performance?? Well, we went out early so no choise lorh... Have to accept the punishment... Heehee...

The five of us, took 136 to kovan then take MRT to Douby Gaugh ((should be like this larh... any one who knows the real spelling, tagg me.. I wana change so pai seh)) then after that we change train, change to erm... the marina one larh.. then we alight at Novena lorh... All five of us were joking around... Dicky all the way keep ((suan)) me lorh.. sian!!! Haha...

Guess what, we had to look for that bloody shop because she, our form teacher Miss Suhana, didn't tell us the place with much details... Then we were smart enough, we went to the information counter and ask! We found the cute cute shop.. haha... The uncle also very cute... haha...

Tomorrow I have to back to the cute cute shop to pay the deposit... haha... Hope I not going alone... Haiz...

Today very funny, Leonard got alot of scolding... haha... He stupid lorh~ go and play with the fire alarm then my teacher, Miss Wat, bring him go general office... Tomorrow either got detention or what one lorh...

Haiz... Late ler... -sob-

Haiz... I'm so god damn stupid!!!

2005-04-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

((SighZz)) The day was fine... But it turned upside down after I read FengNi's blog... Haiz... It's no big deal because I read it often... But, today then I realise that she did mention about mii in her posts and that I have neglected her feelings.. Well, to start off, the feelings weren't the same... Especially me and her... I feel like a stranger around her and I can sense that she isn't acting naturally infront of me... At first, I was confused so I thought I should step down... Maybe I made her upset in someways... I wanted and tried to make the first move and talked to her but she was like not the FengNi I once know... It is not that she changed.. That's not my point.. But, the fact is, she didn't change... I was the one who changed... I knew I am the root to the plant ((problem)) but the question mark is, What in the world did I do?!? I can't remember well... ((SighZ))

I feel so bad... Real bad... The things I have done, the things I have neglected, the people I have let down and of course the many other things... I wish to take this opportunity to apologise to FengNi, it may be too late or what so ever... But I just wish that she actually would read my blog and accept my sincere apologise... ((SighZ)) I can't believe what I have really done or neglect... I feel so bad, so horrible... I can't let down the times we had spend together... I missed them but I don't know how to retrieve them back... I want to do things right this time!!!

BYE~ Peace Out... ((Vani's favourite quote))

Yes!!

2005-04-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo~ Today ishh my class performance... Haha... Their hard work has been paid off... It was a success today... Haha... But there were few flaws, well, we can't blame them... nothing is perfect in this world... haha.. ohh yeah... Today, before the performance, I quarreled with that idiotic FangYing... Haiz.. dun wana talk about it.... I think I'll end here... keke

Nice day...

2005-04-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today is the best day of my life!!! Haha...

Me and my classmates today went out to practice for our class performance... Haha... There were Vani, Yufang, Aavram, Dickson Lee, JinHui, Edmond, Serene, JiaXuan, LiXin, YanLing, ZhiXiong, Ashzton, WeiBin, Adilah and... I think is like that only larh... Haha.. Including mii of course... I can't remember who ler... Think only got till like that...

We were suppose to go to puggol C.C to practice but guess what... 2eA was going there too... So, we got no choice but to change location... We went to many places and finally, we went to YuFang's old house... Haha... It was empty... Duh~ She just moved... heexXx [[Okay.. Let's start from the beginning of the day]]

HmMm... I woke up at 9.30a.m when I'm suppose to meet my friends at 1000 outside hougang mall's mcdonald... Never mind about that, I had to bring that bloody radio you know... YanLing came to my house to help out... She reached about 9.55a.m so I got no choice but to rush and bathe and so on... After all that rubbish, we walked slowly to Hougang Mall... Well, guess what, the puctual ones were Adilah, Serene, Vani, Aavram, LiXin, JiaXuan, guess that's all... Then we had to wait for the princes... haiz... ZhiXiong arrived shortly then we went to my house to take money... It was empty... Everyone went out... After taking my money, I went down and meet the people who were with mii ((Vani, Aavram and ZhiXiong)) slowly, we stroll to Hougang sports hall to meet the rest of the people... We waited for quite a long while... ((SianZ)) then we went in to the sporst hall... We thought can use it but was told that we actually have to book it... We left we no choice, we went to Yufang's old house... We didn't take any bus, we just walked there.. It wasn't far of course... Then we spend almost the whole day there practicing... Ashzton came late, he reached Yufang's house at about... erm... one... then he taught my class boys how to dance break dance... Nothing bad happened luckily... haha... I was so god-damn impressed with Dickson Lee he is so good... I was happy today, the boys were so serious.. Especially JinHui... This is the first time I see JinHui being so serious knowing each other for a year... They practiced hard but not hard enough to win the rest of the class yet... Well, I can't blame them, they only practiced for a day... I didn't expect much, I was glad enough that they had really put in their best effort...

Ohh yeah... Before I leave, I wana thank JinHui for the Donald duck he gave mii, it was cute... heeheexXx

NitexXx nitexXx... =pPp

So Sian~

2005-04-07T20:27:00.000+08:00

Haiz... ((SiaN~)) I feel so god damn lousy~ Oh for crying out loud!!! ((Copied FrOm a BooK... haHa)) Haiz... I think I'm so dumb!!!

I should have guessed that bloody outcome!! It always end up the same...! I so regret being devoted to all of them... ((SiAn)) I hate mi myself and I!!!! ArgGg... God!!! Tell me what the hell is happening around the damn mi!! I'm so exhausted... So frustrated... So PiSsEd!! I'm so pissed and frustrate about myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ArhGgGg... Tell mi~ tell mi~ Just anyone will do!

Haiz... Gonna commit suicide one day... Wondering whether I should do that... Hmm... Nah~ That's too silly... Anyway, I did one silly thing ler!! Haha.. I used a blade to cut my left hand.. I tried to write a symbol.. But it turn out to be ugly!! haiz.. It hurts... Anyone reading this, remember not to cut ur own hand!!! haha... Ohh yeah... Yesterday about the QinWoon cutting Jannah's hand... Nothing real bad happened... Just that she had to go and have 7 stitches and was lucky that she didn't lose her life... QinWoon almost killed her... Haiz... hope none of these would ever happened~ i have to go now.. +*=BleahZ=*+

Soo long never blog low~

2005-04-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

Wah... Few weeks never blog le... Miss mii nort?? Haha... BHB~ ((SighzZz))

These days haven't been good at all... I'm so god damn devastated other than people who reads my blog, I think only two or three people know how I really feel right now... Haiz... Can't believe that I didn't realise the goodness of her... Shouldn't have been nasty to her in the first place... Today is no good anyway, school was average... Normal routine... Go school come home... ((Sian)) Some thing bad happened today anyway, Jannah asked QinWoon to cut her hand with a blend and I can't believe that he really did what he was asked to... Now he's in a deep shiit... I sympathize with him... The cut was so deep... It's totally DisGusTinG! luckily nothing real bad had happened... Now, the top subject on my worrying list is QinWoon... His parents are strict, I don't know what his parents will do and what the teachers would do... ((SiaN)) It hurts seeing my godbrother like that...
These few days have been a very busy one for mii... Have to stay back very late almost everyday... Got class performance, Orchestra, academics and not to forget my relationship with friends and family... I'm so vexed... Have been getting major lectures from parents over minor daily mistakes... Thanks to my damn mouth... Friends... Another problem... I think I have communication blockage/breakdown... Haiz... I doubt I would ever believe in true-friendship since I can hardly find one... I know I have one or two but so sad in different schools... Hardly have the time to spend with them... haiz... SAD!!! dun feel like continuing!!! BYE!

A disasterous week!

2005-03-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

I feel so lousy~ Help wanted badly... Just need a listening ear will do.. hmmm I doubt any kind-hearted sole alive now won't even bother about my presence... ((Sigh~))

Nothing much happened on Monday... Maybe went home late and was tired so a bit stressed up... Tuesday was the start of my lousy mood... School was great (not really actually)... Had to go for the prefects investitute [our so-called big day] then went for about half an hour practice in Music Studio [Chinese Orchestra]... Went to heart land ate dinner and bought stocking for the next day reached home and got lectured!! Nice one~ The lecture or the scolding took about half-an-hour.... power huh~ think again...
Next day (23o3o5) after having an excruciating tuesday, we prefects had our investiture... it wasn't a disasterous but it turned out fine and enjoyable~ the outfit we had to put on wasn't ugly but was tiring... the shirt was long and hot!! the high heels are high (duh~) and PAINFUL!! The food our school provided is DeLiCious~ hah! but i didn't eat much~ Finally got my tie pin!! Wooo Hooo!!! haha... At least this had brighten my week...
Today wasn't any much better... Had our annual sports day and we damn prefects had to do damn duties! Well, I got the job for being a 'guarding dog' for a stal to control the students going in and out (to the stall) had fun by chatting with my friendly seniors... today i realize that hai kal is very cute... haha~ Just was wondering why do i always get along best with them only when they are leaving the school?? Boring~ Ohh yeah~ got nagged at again just now for my phone bills... feel even worse... haiz...

I got to go... it's late~ buaiz...

Tired and bored~~

2005-03-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

Guess what, my homework is still left untouched!! Hah! I am so god damn bad and lazy... ((Sigh~)) Got nothing to do but not in the mood to do my homework~ Don't do also cannot... Have to hand them up on monday~ ((Boring~))

I think I really should consider re-formatting my handphone... It is really very very slow~ Wondering whether I should format it or just change a new handphone~ Hmm... Forget it... Don't know what I'm thinking right now...

Yesterday went out with Haniza~ Had some catching up then found out that I am so lagging from the trend... What's more I am also slacking in my relationship ((Friend's))... I feel so guilty and bad bad... real bad... Yesterday night or should I say this morning at about 1145 to about 0300, I chatted with Leonard~ Nice chatting with him but I blabbered too many nonsence... God knows why I did that... But my friend's secret is still save with mii~ I just told him about what he wanted to know about dots.... =pPp... Haah~ Found out some hidden secrets about him too... Not really hidden secrets at all actually... He changed my opinion by telling mii his and I think that he's reasonable... Well, I think that guys are really better in communicating with girls... Well, can describe them as the best communicator CREATURES... Wahahaha... mii ish shoo baddie~ I guess I really only can communicate well with guys except for some and Haniza is an exception... She has a great listening ear at time when her mood does not go against her...

Since no one is reading any of my post ((Hardly any of my friends know I have one maybe 2 or 3)) I think I won't change my template anymore... It's so wasting my precious time~

I guess my post is long enough~ Haha... +*=BleahZ=*+

I'm sho god damn broke!!!

2005-03-18T17:56:00.000+08:00

Heex... Today was being left alone at home~ But went out to Compass's library with darling Haniza~ hahax ((Sigh~)) shouldn't have went out!! Now am sho broke arh~~ ((SIAN)) But actually, not really~ I have $12 with Vaness, $2 with Vani, $2 with Yufang and lastly my $3 with FengNi!! Haha~ If I get them all back by next week, then I will have ninteen~ Hahax... Now need to save money to buy... erm... ah... eh... hmmm... don't know~ Maybe gonna buy new handphone... god knows... save for ear piece?? or better still save for a new laptop!! HahaxXx... hope to get one soon`` share with dad and sis can suffer... everytime cannot use`` haiz...

Today actually plan to do homework but ended talking~ HahaxXx.. I guess I agree with people who thinks that girls are chatter box`` So tired~ Today woke up at about 10 plus to 11!! First time for this whole week sia~ Been waking up early these days...

Don't know what to say next~ HmMm... Think I go write testi for mii de seniors larh~~ Buaiz...

Tired and sick~

2005-03-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

Haiz~ Today so damn tired... ((Sigh~)) I just found out that I am sick... Sick from Sunday!!! SianxXx... Last night slept at 12++ or 1 then wake up at 0715... Siao right!! Haiz.. Too bad larh~~ Needed to report to school for prefect's investiture's rehersal!! So tired... After that, mi yufang daniel and hilda went up to music studio saw peggy then left school for heart land mall with peggy and yufang... Ate then stroll for a while before going back to school for more practice... Today is such a lousy one!! We improved just that tiny bit... MingKwang didn't say but guess also know that other school has already solve that kind of problem we encountered and is now maybe practising to ensure themselves that they would get a gold or what so ever... I feel so let down by myself!! Losers are always losers... On the way home my head started to spin then a war started inside... Now still spinning... Tire sick and tired!!! Haiz... Got ta go larh~~ Buaiz

So Happy!!!

2005-03-17T15:41:00.000+08:00

Phew... One week and two days never post le... ((Sigh~)) Many things happen these days but no mood to talk about them... Now talking to "Nerd" on the phone...
Today so happy~ haha... Today go escape with Vaness,Zariel, Vani, Yufang,Leonard and XingJie (got some other few)... quite fun larh~~ The most fun part'' is when we went to the nearby beach... HmMm... Why not talk about the whole trip... haha``

We played in Escape but it wasn't as fun as I thought it would be... Vaness and Yufang kept playing Pirate Ship, Wet & Wild and the family roller coaster... Me and Vani played... hmMm... Panasonic, Pirate Ship, 360 ((or the so called pepsi)) and Rainbow... This time in Escape, I really didn't had great fun... I felt quite weird without Haniza's company... The last time I went there was with her and we played all the rides within a few short hours too... Actually I wanted to play 'Go-Kart' but missed the chance... The girls didn't want to so we skipped that... ((Sigh~)) Nothing special happen in Escape except the time when the boys join us in our second Panasonic ride... Zariel sat with XingJie while Leonard sat with Vani and I went solo... Leonard was LAME enough to shout 'I want my mummy' during the ride... It's such a disgrace having a friend like him but that indeed brighten up our day...
After the first round in Escape, we went out hoping to find Aavram ((the guy who booked the chalet)) but, unfortunately we went to the wrong Resort... Haha~ Leonard wasted 7 bucks... We gave Aavram a call then found out that it was the other chalet... We went back to the Escape entrance then followed Aavram to his chalet... We didn't stay long for the first time because we went to the nearby beach... It was so damn fun... At first we sat down on a so-called huge rock then relax for a few long moments... I didn't felt high at all because I was thinking of some unforgetable memories... ((Sigh~)) Vaness was running around near the so called tide then she suddenly sad alone one side quite far from us, placing her head on the knees... I went forward to sit beside her upon knowing that she was alone ((from zariel... haha...)) then later she sang some S.H.E songs then we start singing -Jian Au- Me and her went back to where Vani and Yufang was relaxing ((also because the boys came behind us))... Then, we felt like soking our feet in the cool sea... We took off our shoes and went down as slow as we could so as to prevent from getting "hurt" we played for a while got wet... The best part of all was that XingJie got 'sabotaged' he was sort of thrown into the sea but it wasn't deep at all so sad... Too shallow... +*=BleahZ=*+ We played for a while until our hair got sand and shirt too got sand... ((Gosh what English!!)) We followed Aavram back to the chalet and settled ourselves down properly... Actually not exactly, we went straight to the toilet to wash our dirtied hair and so on... After that we went outside of the chalet and sat down... The water boy ((Leonard... haha~)) served us great beverage... ((Ohh~~ I'm sooo Bad)) After these rubbish, we went back to Escape...
We went back but this time didn't really play much... Just browse around... Then me and Vani thought of going home since it's a bit late... We spend quite a long time then we went out... ((The guy working there is soo cute... haha)) Did somethings then wasted some time until we finally walk to the bustop... First to the wrong one then to the right one... Haha... Can't blame mii... I'm a blind directory... ;p

Got back home at about 1945 then found out that my hands are quite tanned due to the blazing hot weather... Now, both my hands have three different colours... I'm so happy but was being reminded that I would be back as a fair person... ((sad~)) Haha...

Hmmm... That's all the bahx.. Now late le need some rest!! Buaiz... +*=BleahZ=*+

My P.O.V for SRS Chinese Orchestra...

2005-03-08T11:13:00.000+08:00

HmmMmm... This is my second post for today le... =duh~~= But in this post, I'm gonna talk about my P.O.V (point of view) for Chinese Orchestra... Don't know why today very emotional... hmMm... Ate wrong medicine?? God knows...

Today just talk to Jason N.W.S can feel that the atmosphere is so damn different... Did not improve at all or worse still getting colder... Maybe it's the age... God knows... I find that he is getting further away from S.R.S Chinese Orchestra le... Know maybe because of my batch that made this once-lively Orchestra into a dead one... Well, all I can say is 'Sorry we did not mean to do so'... I doubt any seniors would be reading this post, they are all like so busy with both academic and non-academics... I feel that I need to do something to this Orchestra... I think that I should not let Mr. Lim down, since our seniors thinks that being in Chinese Orchestra is very boring or what so ever, I am starting to TRY and talk to them... Some say they don't feel welcome... Then for those absent-minded people, I will TRY and bring them back with my best talking trick.. haha`` ''Bu Yao Lian''

Doing all these not to gain credits and bribe people but I really want Chinese Orchestra to be back to their once-warmth and lively attitude... Especially not to let Mr. Lim down... I think one of the main reason that the seniors are not willing to come back is because there isn't anyone to encourage them le... Before when Mr.Lim was there for us, he could solve many problems among us and I really appreciate the effort he put in... I don't want him to feel that he has wasted all his hard work and effort on this Chinese Orchestra... If any of my seniors are reading this post, please consider what I think... Not only for Chinese Orchestra sake, do it for Mr. Lim too.. Please I beg you guys...

Haiz... So tired... Haven't finish my homeworks... I wonder when will I find a true friend who would """sit down""" and listen to my problems and stuffs... Sian arh``

=Dots= Buaiz... Lastly, "Happy Birthday YiCeng"

Today's audition sucked...

2005-03-08T10:34:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Sian... Back to blogging le... Didn't blog for like 2 days?? Cannot blame mii... I had to practice for my damn pathetic audition... *Sigh~~* Today my audition... Very bad... My intuitions are telling mii that I would fail pathetically for this audition... It's like so embarassing but fun... The judges ain't fierce or so called un-friendly at all... They were okay... Wondering why Yufang said the 'short-hair' woman was fierce when she was quite friendly...

At first when I was in school about an hour before the time we had to leave for the audition, I was so damn nervous and scared... Partly because my classmates, Leonard and SayLoong were making my stomach ''chen'' such a weird feeling... Haiz... Tomorrow ishh YiCeng's Birthday le... HmMm... Pity him for going through all these obsticles since primary school... Sian...

Got back all my test papers le... So happy that I did not fail any subjects but the results were like shiit... Almost all my results are borderline pass de... so sad... Must buck up le... Secondary two liao... Cannot pray pray... haha`` Play play**

Don't why suddenly got so many things to say... Haiz.. Think I should end my crappZzZ for today here... Later mii de readers feel that I'm really as naggy as I describe...

Haiz...

2005-03-05T11:17:00.000+08:00

So sian sia... At home waiting for Yufang, YanLing and KimPei to come so that we can practice for the Audition... +*=Dots=*+ So tired... Last night slept at one plus then wake up at eight plus... HmMm... Today ishh Cassies Birthday... I stupid lohh... Plan that I want to sms her this morning at 1200 but forgot all about it... Last night must be thinking of too many things bahxXx... Haiz... So sian... Now feeling abit nervous again... Need to get ready for the Audition le... Haiz...

+*=Dots=*+

wah liao... mii and my toopid mouth...

2005-03-05T11:00:00.000+08:00

Wah liao... Mii and mii de stupid mouth... Just wana apologise... I apologise many times le... Haiz... If you are reading this pathetic post,

''Sorry YiCeng... Know I wrong le... Don't angry le can?? Sorry... I don't expect to get anything from you, I just want to apologise because I felt so Gulity real Gulity after you told me what I did wrong... Forgive mii this last time can?? I promise I won't talk crab le... That thing I told them was like a month or so ago?? [[I think so]] Haiz.. The choice whether you want to forgive or not is yours...''

Haiz... Sian... This week so unlucky... Most of the things I do goes the wrong way and ishh all mii de fault... DamN IT!!! Haiz... Now under so many pressure still need to think about so many things... Want to help match-make L****** and Y*****, want to help A***** to pluck up courage and start talking to his so called stead in class and after school, B******, want to help Y**L*** to change herself, want to help my pathetic self to do things CORRECTLY and so damn many more...

Well, no one cares so I don't find a need telling anyone... Since I doubt anyone would read this pathetic blog ((only two to four people know this blog nia)), I think I would choose to tyoe it out.. Haiz... Now so damn stressed up... No one even cares to help ease my stress by lending mii their listening ear... Although every night talk to L******, he/she only talk about her/his things de lohh... With H***** only can listen to her school things... She don't know anyone in my school and now both of us seldom talk too... Sometime really feel like crying because I know I have tons and tons of friends, but I can never find my true friends... With F***N* and P**** that group everyday ishh best in ''insulting'' ((sort of)) people... Talk seriously for awhile then start joking again... I think I trust people too easily le lahh...

Wah liao... Got back most test paper le... For the time being, I never fail any subjects... but I have a feeling that I will be failing History!! WHO CARES?? I hate that subject... I hate that BimBo teacher too... ((sorry.. just pissed off))!!!!!!!!

I so confuse now... So so so confuse now...

Don't feeling like typing on... Feel like venting frustration by using vugalrities!!!!!!!! ArHgGgGg.... Think too much now headache!!!! Wah`` FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!

Edmond's Birthday...

2005-03-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

Wahh`` Today ishh the Edmond's birthday... hahaxXx... Didn't give him anything.. Just shake his hands... HahaxXx... Common test over loww... so happy...

Now have to get ready for an audition.. Must practice hard.. Because need to go through it although just less then a week notice... Haiz... It is for a Music camp one... Sian... If never go in Raymond don't want to talk to me and so on.. So pressured... Must Jia You...

But, I very angry also... Our principle wanted to celebrate the results most students get for 'O' levels then get one hour early off... Unlucky!!! On my Audition that day let early... Haiz... If not still got one day can go home one hour early one loh... Now feeling very nervous... not excited at all... Haiz...

Tuesday mii Birthday, Wednesday Chelsie and Celina's birthday then today Edmond's one... hahaxXx... Haiz... Sian I wana go do mii de things le...

+*=Dots=*+ Jasmine

Happy!! He talked to mii...``

2005-03-02T19:39:00.000+08:00

Haha`` Today abit overjoyed... I talked to him... Haha`` Lamer... He played with me... Haiz... Sian want... Just went to read his blog... Very sad story leh... But I can only read and do nothing... Haiz... So confused and fed-up now... Just now also went to Jason Neo's blog... Very nice but mostly about Naruto and don't know what Ninja de lah... After that then went to his brothers', Derek, blog... Very simple but creative.. haha`` My description is so god damn bad man... Sad sad so sad... Why must I always be the one seeing him getting hurt in a dark and lonely place?? Ohh god.. Give him some luck...

Hey... Wah liao... I need to do homework le lah... Stupid Miss Chua lah... give so many...

My Birthday...

2005-03-02T13:49:00.000+08:00

y0z... y0z.... Haha`` Today just turn 14... Wooooo~~~ Haha... Today my birthday but nothing special happened... Still got test leh... haha`` After test then went to Chinese Orchestra... Nothing really special had happened... Maybe my friends hit me 14 times because I'm 14 now?? haha`` First time anyway... This year in Secondary, I feel that I'm more surrounded with friend compared with the time I had in Primary school loh... +*=BleaHzZz=*+

HmMm... Quite a number of friends remembered my birthday.. Good... Haha`` But I only want him to wish me... Haiz... Why am I torturing myself??? Sian arh~~

Hey`` I got to go... *dotzZz* Buaiz...